Sad Realization

J has been telling me for several weeks now, but I didn't want to believe it. I was SURE that I wouldn't have to do it, but we are. HV, HM, and myself will have to return to TX by the end of next week without HG. My heart is broken. I've cried for most of today. There's nothing I can do. I have only 3 weeks of FMLA time left. We will not be done in 3 weeks. If I do not leave next week, then I will not have any time to take off to bring her home and then be home for a bit before I must return to work full time. So, we will return. I do not know the details yet on when, but we are working it out now.
HG will go live with my friend, A. While I KNOW that she will be well taken care of with this precious family, I am so afraid of confusing HG and scaring her. Please pray that God will protect her mind and give her a sense of peace with this. I am not at peace with it yet, so pray for me too. I consulted with a pediatric neuropsychologist and she made some suggestions on how I can make this as easy as possible and we will follow her suggestions. She stated that it could be detrimental for our future attachment with HG if we left her, but I won't be able to provide my portion of our family support if I lose my job. My brain knows these things. My heart isn't on board with it yet.
We would also like to have the DNA testing completed before we leave, so please pray that they will set this up for the beginning of next week and it will be done before I leave. I am supposed to hear from the scheduler planner asap.